Trains

The numerous cars
have brought me joy.
They have brought me sorrow.

One day they wont
be such a big part of my life.
As for now I have to plan the next
heart pain.

LOVE
an emotion I never expected
to experience.
It wont be taken for granted.
Impossible.

Silly

I am a lucky girl.

Insomnia

Frustrated
but not to much I can do.
I feel alone,
and cannot contact my loved ones.
What do I feel.
So fucking confused.
This is farther than I have ever gone
and I already feel myself detaching.

I cant speak my needs or my wants all I know how to do
is watch as it crumbles.
WHAT DO I FEEL????????

Gift

Harp as a heart
beats in the plucking of strings.

Living the normal life
is over rated and
too planed out by others.
I think adventure and unknowing
has lead me the right way thus far.

Awkward at the least

I love Your Existence.
I really do.
But can't you tell I am afraid of this.
My heart cannot handle pain, and sorrow.
If I love you will you treasure it?
You beautiful, and I adore that you love me.
Why don't I sense the fear in your voice,
I so badly want to tell you how scared and nervous I am.
As I open my mouth, the word are like vapor,
silent and invisible.
Baby I need your embrace right around now.
I'm coming soon,
save a hug for me.

Its all a cup of coffee

This feeling,
fills me with fear that inspires.
Distance,
soon to be abolished.
Are things moving,
a little to fast for my taste.
I'll admit,
I had to do with it.
That won't hold me back.
Just don't hurt me....

This is a feeling
I thought was lost forever.
Although many "Christians"
seem fake and much like cookie cutter.
I know, I KNOW the bible is true.

I need some one with a brain to talk to.
To discuss things with.


God, send me someone.