Smoking will kill me

Today is the day
I am making my life better
I am doing some spring cleaning
Getting rid of things
That aren't needed in my life anymore
Starting with smoking


I wonder whats going to be next??

Friends

Connections

the human soul
has a way of connecting itself
so fast
it blows my mind

Sexually
even just a few hours
or sometimes it can take
just one look
in order for you to be sexually connected with someone
meaning
a simple physical attraction
all the way to
a crush or puppy love

Friendships
It takes a minuet or two
for most often final judgments to be made
about a person
friend worthy or just another passing through

once basics have formed
it can take as little as a week to a month
to form that "special" friendship
some call best friends/family



now ponder this
What comes with this fast pace connections

quick let go's
from my personal life
i have noticed how
quickly
i am ok with letting
friends go
whom i used to call my family

this not only worries me but
intrigues my mind


people work in weird ways...

My confution soon made Its way to Happiness

Waking up to my sisters voice
yelling my name
Something that hasn't happened
for a few months now

This ignorant action
done upon me
brings a sense of comfort
in my heart
knowing someone who
I care deeply for is
there wanting my attention



On another note

Today is going to be busy
<33 love life for what it is
one day one moment at a time
you never know what will
turn into a forever lasting memory

Earl Grey and Batteries

All persons at one point in there life
will hear the phrase:
You Live and You Learn

Sometimes I find that hard to believe

Like today
I bought batteries
for my piano.
And instead of taking my time to open them
which would have saved the container
which held the extra batteries
i ripped it wide open
and all twelve of them fell to the floor.
AS for the container
completely torn apart.
which means ghetto
ziploc bag which ill probably lose


This is where i should have learned
I also bought earl grey tea today
which happens to be my Favorite.

My hot water is boiling
so i grab the unopened box and
rip the top apart...
why don't I learn??

is it the sheer excitement
of having something new
or is it my young, adolescent
brain which refuses to accept that
change is sometimes for the better

whatever it maybe
i sit here baffled and quite amused
=]

Beauty in the Breakdown

Come on, take a step towards me
So you can figure me out
I've been hoping and praying for a single way
To show you what I'm all about
And I know, and I know this is the only way of pleasing the crowds
But when this is over and done with and we walk away
There should be no doubts

So let's get a little closer now
Let's get a little closer now

You say, you say that we're all tied up
And wrapped around in useless, useless states of mind
But at the same time we're still young
We have the time to realize that we were wrong

Come on love run with me
Get the hell out of this town
So we can get a better feel for each other
I'll take you, back to, when you
Remembered how you used to
Just live your life a little for me
Take the time to let it go
Step away and watch me grow


So let's get a little closer now
Let's get a little closer now

You say, you say that we're all tied up
And wrapped around in useless, useless states of mind
But at the same time we're still young
We have the time to realize that we were wrong

You can stay if you want to
And I write to you and tell you how you've always been so special to me
You can stay if you want to, and I’ll try
You can stay if you want to
And I write to you and tell you how you've always been so special to me
You can stay if you want to, and I’ll try

To keep you close to me (x3)

You say, you say that we're all tied up
And wrapped around in useless, useless states of mind
But at the same time we're still young
We have the time to realize that we were wrong

I just want back into your head

Holy Shit

I woke up early

Thats all =]

Getting Thoughts Back to Peace and Serenity

The Past Few Months have been fast paced and non-stop
I have lost myself in the process
Taking a few steps back to enjoy the simple things again
To renew the calm tenderhearted me
I am going to the library to read
Then if time allows to the park to write my thoughts out

Tonight I am going to brush the dust off
My favorite book
And sit and read it.

Today is looking bright
=]